It’s only the beginning…

My grandpa died last week. That feels weird to say. When things like this happen, when people that we love and who loved us pass on we tend to take stock; for me this has meant taking a hard look at life and reminding myself that this life is brief and was meant to prepare us for the life to come. My grandpa died last week, but really his life has just begun. A life void of loss and pain, a life free from sin; it’s almost too beautiful to think about. While my grandpa was on this earth his faith and hope was resting in Christ alone, and now he is with his Savior, my Savior; he is living a life we can only try to imagine.

Everything in this life is so rushed and the world tells us that we need to derive all the pleasure we can while we can. So we cram our days until they’re jam packed with work and play. We’re experts at the glorification of being busy. We yearn for more and are surprised when relationships cease to bring fulfillment and the stuff of this world is ultimately unsatisfying. All too often we (and by we I mean me) fail to remember that we were meant to live for so much more, that God gives purpose to these lives that we would have otherwise wasted on ourselves. For those placing their faith and hope in Christ this life is not about our personal, present happiness. While we can and should enjoy the good gifts that God has given us it’s imperative that we realize that this life is full of suffering, full of loss, full of waiting, full of anticipation and every bit of it is meant to prepare us for the life to come.

My grandpa’s home going has caused to me realize that I’m ready, I’m ready to go home, but while I’m here my purpose is to bring glory to the One who has created me to be His image bearer, to share His truth, His love, His light with a world that is in desperate need of Jesus. It’s also reminded me to rest, rest in the strong and steadfast arms of my Lord, because the best is yet to come.

This life is just a layover on the way to my destination. I pray that I continue to remember that and that this truth shapes how I live my life, how I serve my Savior.

My grandpa was a great man and while we miss him dearly here on earth, we can take great comfort and even joy in knowing that he is with Jesus, face to face, how glorious…what more could anyone ask for?

“It’s the moment when humanity

Is overcome by majesty

When grace is ushered in for good

And all our scars are understood

When mercy takes it’s rightful place

And all these questions fade away

When out of the weakness we must bow

And hear You say “It’s over now”



I’m filled with thoughts of thankfulness to a sovereign God who has faithfully seen me through 25 years of life and I’m hopeful and excited to see what He has in store for me for the remainder of my time here on earth.

Hope and excitement with a tinge of confusion; confusion because I have no idea what God is doing right now. But He is faithful and He is good and He loves me with a steadfast love that is wholly satisfying–whether I feel it or not. He is the lover of my soul. He has given me great joy and deep pain and there is an abundance of beauty in both.

When I feel alone and beaten and battered by life He comforts me and causes me to cling to my Savior more fervently. When hope seems too painful to muster He whispers it back into my heart through His word. When it feels like He is crushing me, He is actually giving me life. He is intimately familiar with my tears and my laughter, my heartache and happiness.

So, I’m praying for grace to abide in Him and asking for mercy and forgiveness when I fail. And I’m resting, for the first time in a while, I’m resting in His faithfulness instead of wrestling with His timing. What a beautiful gift this rest is. Our Heavenly Father has poured out grace upon grace on us and leads us through each step of this messy life, preparing us for the life to come.

“Now may the God of peace who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, equip you with everything good that you may do his will, working in us that which is pleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.” –Hebrews 13:20&21