I see how every unmet expectation, each unfulfilled desire causes me to cling more fervently to You and Your word. I see what you’re doing, in this moment, I see what you’re doing and it’s altogether painful and beautiful. You’re molding me to reflect your Son more clearly, your desires are becoming my desires. It’s not an easy process–it’s exceptionally agonizing at times. But you love me, so if you have to break my heart in order to conform it to yours, you will. And I’ll praise you for it. At times I may be angry at you for it, but in the end, in my heart of hearts I know that everything you do in this brief life that you’ve given me is for my good and your glory. Though my strength fades and my love for you fluctuates daily, even momentarily, you are consistently strong and perfectly loving in a way that I cannot comprehend.
So, today I’m laying my struggles, my joys, my burdens, and my fears down at your feet and I’m praying that you’ll enable me to continue to do this in the hours, days, months, and years to come.
I pray that you would make this true of my heart:
“Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:25&26