My confidence in God is fleeting at best. I praise Him for His wisdom and question His will in the same breath. It’s not so much that I doubt that His will is good and perfect as much as I am just scared of the pain and suffering that His will for my life may entail. So I ask Him for His will to be done all the while hoping beyond hope that he will give me my desired outcome. In reality, I don’t need to beg God to accomplish His will (His will will be accomplished regardless), I just need to rest in it. I need to quit fearing His will and simply abide in Him. Of course, that’s much easier said than done.
“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God.For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God.” –Romans 8:18-22
The truth is, more often than not, I’m more concerned with my personal present happiness than I am about future glory with Christ Jesus in Heaven.
We live in a world of instant gratification. I want what I want and I want it now. And the world tells me that I should have it now. So I become indignant when I can’t have it and I begin to realize how little control I actually have over so many aspects of life on this earth.
But then I think about eternity, I think about the life to come and then, well then, all I want is Jesus. When I look at this life for what it is, a layover on my journey home, I can with all sincerity say, “Have Thine own way, Lord”. Because at the end of the day this life is a vapor. My 26 years have come and gone in the blink of an eye, moments wasted and opportunities seized…gone. When I think about eternity, all the here and now struggles and wants start to seem worth it, because I know, I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that God is preparing me for an eternity spent with Him living in the light of His glory. He’s drawing me closer to Himself. So, seeking out my fleshly desires and my own glory becomes beyond the pale ridiculous when weighed against an eternity spent with the one who spilled His blood for my sins.
God is writing my script for my time here on earth and I don’t always like it, but what I constantly fail to remember is that a second act is coming…the grand finale that has no end. God only knows, truly, God only knows what He will accomplish in His children in the span of forever.
Living in light of eternity changes my perspective on virtually everything. It shapes how I live my life, chiefly because it causes me to remember that this life is transitory and it is not my own. I’ve been called to live for the glory of another and there is no higher purpose that anyone can find in this life, because God gives purpose to everything. He is the reason we live, He is the source of our life.
So, I pray that God would cause me to live in light of an eternity spent with Him and join my heart with psalmist in saying:
“One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in his temple.” –Psalm 27:4